Saturday, September 30, 2006
its been such a long tym since i blogged.
alot ppl complaining le.
wahhas.
n so i came n blog now.
hmm..
ok so mani things happen la.
its been lyk exactly 20 daes since i blog.
haiya.
shld wait for 2 more daes ltr hor?
ahas.
den will make to no 22.
wahahas.
v gang will noe wad i tokin abt.
ya?
hahas.
deleted 1 of the post,
cuz the nxt post is smth SPECIAL ba.
mayb its my no 122 Post?
lol.
so muz make the nxt post real happie.
ok.
shall comment abt wad happen on fri bahs.
hmm...
vgang gt prob again le.
n its lyk onli 3 daes aft vgang's 1yr anni?
hais.
i dno.
reallie.
y lyk tt?
juz bcuz of tt y^4?
ya. we r all wrong.
wrong for nt tellin u all dese.
for olso creatin dis new grp.
so i start off wif sayin sorry.
reallie sorry.
hmm..
to mi.
probably,
i will sae its everyone's fault.
so i start off wif sayin y i sae both side gt fault.
ok.
have u all ever think y we wanna create dis new grp?
cuz we feel EMPTY.
seriously.
EMPTY.
think for urself.
jiahui's thing.
we noe?
we dunno!
its olwaes 4 of u.
nt 6 of us tgt.
seriously,
we tried sharing problems together.
n i guess i may nt b tryin my best ba.
cuz jh shared her probs, at least to the 4 of dem,
shiyuan to us,
yvonne to us,
sl to us,
clareen-my guardian angel, olwaes cheering ppl up, n seems to b tt heroine of my heart.
bt mi?
i kept everything to myself
even shiyuan dunno.
surprising?
i'm sorry.
cuz i dun wan to increase all of ur burdens.
i reallie dunno whu to trust.
cuz i feel really empty.
empty of wad?
i olso duno.
family probs ba?
or tt smth else?
i dunno.
sry.
sry.
sry.
sry.
i'm really really sorry.
let mi state properly.
i'm NOT trying to let ppl pity mi.
cuz i reallie wan to make some PEACE over here.
i dun wan things to happen dis wae u noe?
ya. i pin-pointed tt sl,clare,jh,n vone r alwaes tgt n nt 6 of us.
dis is olso partially our fault ba.
cuz we did nt try to kip up the pace wif u all.
i TRIED.
i dare said i alrdy TRIED.
bt it didn't work. i dno. so tts whr we r in wrong.
olso,
sumtyms we didn't wait for u, n u all too.
cuz we ASSUME things.
we assume tt each of us dun wanna wait for each other, n so we didn't wait.
n bcuz of dis ASSUMIN thing, we dun wait for each other.
back to tt y^4 thing.
i'm sry for nt tellin u all.
we decided to make dis grp low profile.
cuz we didn't wan misunderstandings.
michelle knew hw much cynthia hates her,
n tts y we decided nt to sae out.
n u c.
when dis y^4 thingi breaks out,
cynthia started scoldin her.
fuckin bitch,
idiot bitch?
n sae she is trying to gt ppl's sympathy.
mayb michelle forsees all dese things willl happen,
n so we didn't wan to sae out.
when tt thing suddenly break out ytd nite
shiyuan called,
i kept quiet,
told her to leave mi alone.
n i knew hw she was worried abt mi.
(sry abt tt)
ltr yihang called.
i was angry n at the same tym, sad.
we shouted in the fone, n told each other hw we felt.
ltr, michelle, n shiyuan called.
n we had dis mini conference all of a sudden.
for the first tym,
my heart was really pain.
all of us cried.
michelle cried the most.
she ask mi nt to tell ppl wad she said,
cuz she really dun wan ppl's sympathy.
i bet she's the one who was hurt most.
since she dun wan mi to sae,
i shall nt sae wad she said ba.
bt she's juz so hurt la.
abt 5 plus, clare msg mi n ask mi abt tt y^4 thingi.
i didn't replied.
i knw smth bad was gona happen.
i bet, at tt tym sl n calre was alrdy discussin wad plans to carried out.
when dey waited for so long, tt i didn't reply,
sl decided to call mi,
n ask mi gt wad hw.
i was gettin suspiscious at tt tym, cuz she dun normally call mi.
even if she wanna call olso call at 9 plus, 10 de.
she asked mi wad i'm doin,
n i told her, i was studyin wif my neighbour.
ya.
i was tellin the truth.
juz at tt tym sumone called
my neighbour was outside waitin for mi, cuz we studied at our corridor dere.
dun believe ask jaslyn(my neighbour)
sl laughed when i told her tt i was studyin wif jaslyn, cuz she tot i was lying
bt its true.
she dun believe nvm,
its juz another form of TRUST.
so everything break out,
n now we r out of vgang.
hahas.
being KICKED out?
bcame a laughing stock bahs.
wadever.
esther kind of lyk told mi last tym tt she was envious of our congtous, n vgang.
bt now~
everytym we gt probs,
she will sum hw noe, cuz she read my blog.
ya, n she will ask.
hahas.
she knw hw united we r.
bt it sumhw dun now.
sl was rite.
mayb we nid tym bah.
lyk wad i sae,
its a COMMUNICATION ting ba.
hahas.
INCREASE THE PEACE!(:
do rainbow appear? i<3u!((: 10:56 PM
Saturday, September 09, 2006
everybody change.
i dunno y.
i m juz a PAIN IN A NECK bahs.
hais. nvm.
y hav we bcum lyk tt?
u seem tt i m a nuisance to u.
y?y?y?
hais.
y is everybody around mi nt happie?
y?
ytd nite slpt at abt 3 plus 4.
tok on the fone.
had conference.
dis few daes had conference wif dem.
bt ytd was the most emmotional 1.
hahas.
every1 shared their own probs.
n dey cried their hearts out.
seriously!
cry!
ya.
bt at least i m a gd listener!=)
dun worry.
i wil olwaes b dere when u nid mi la.
ok.shall nt reveal too much.
ytd was the HAPPIEST friday i had. u noe!
hahas.
washin of instrument was fun.
wash my beloved horn at the third floor clalssrm toilet dere.
den use the hose to wash our whole horn.
my juniors use the tap to wash their slides, bt i used hose.
so when i finished washing,
i bend down to turn off the hose, cuz the hose is under the basin.
bt instead of turning it off,
i increase the amt of water cumin out of the hose.
cuz i turn the wrong wae?
lol!
hahas.
den my juniors was kana splash by the water?
lol.
hahas.
whole body wet!lol!
hahas.
as usual,
my juniors alwaes bully mi de.
so dey took the hose,
n came chasin aft mi.
i ran out of the toilet,
n stood at the door dere.
hahas.
dey threatened mi if i stepped into the toilet,
i will b dead. =X
lol!
hahas.
in the end,
i still went into the toilet,
n kana splash by my juniors.
hahas. =.='''
den aft tt sat down outside the toilet to dry our horn n tok lor.
hahas.
shld b gossips bahs!
hahas.
heard alot of internal news abt alot of ppl.
hhahas.
was lyk so shocked when i heard it.
n so i bonded well wif my juniors!
lol.
ya.we r forever so gd ma.
hahas.
esther...
i noe u everytym cum my blog de.
so u muz b happie enuff tt i sae u r gd ok!lol.
hahas.we muz jia yous on our horning skills ar!lol!
hmm...
den aft the washing of instruments,
den go for lunch wif my juniors lor(esther,gladys)
den came back fo sectionals.
bt we did hmwk secretly,
n was kana caught by lihua!
hahas.
so we had our sectionals n did our hmwk at the same tym lor.
n to my surprise,
our holiday math hmwk is the same as the sec 1s.
hahas.lol!
so mi n esther did together.
n my super guai gladys did finish long tym ago.
so she went to get a geography bk in the class rm to revise.
u c?
she so guai!
muz learrn frm her!=)
aft sectionals,
i fall out the band.
n dis tym,
stupid RICHMOND n AO XIANG,
make fun of mi.
dey used their super high pitch to sae their markings.
wth!
hahas.
den locked the band store, n was the last to leave the band lor.
n went to find ms chan to pass her the key.
she asked mi smth,
which make yvonne quite agitated n quite pissed off.
lol.
hahas.
aft tt went to stephanie's hse for her bdae party.
had bbq.
unfortunately,
it started raining when dey juz started bbq.
so went to her hse.
sit down n tok abt ghost story.
lol.
sandra nearly cried.
slyvia too.
aft tt went down for bbq again when the rain stoppped.
hahas.
bt halfway through the bbq,
it rained again.
hahas.
n so we bbq under the rain.
hahas.
i used a containeer to cover our bbq foodm, n we stood under the rain to bbq.lol!
hahas.
i still rmb when i took a bowl of water n poured into yvonne's clothes,
n she seemed rather pissed off.
bt ppl around us was coolin her down.
n she was lyk so..
tt i really was so scared tt i wanna cry le lor.
wth!
hahas.
den slyvia sae.
wah..
u todae olso same as mi,
cry.lol!
reached hm abt 10 plus.
thanks samuel for pei-ing mi to tt bus stop.
n missed ur bus for pei-ing mi to wait for my bus.
hahas.
really thanks=)
hais~
had dinner at hm juz now.
hais.
my kor broke up wif her gf le.
bt he doesn't seem sad abt it.
i mean he's gd at fakin at it.
fake until i cnt sensed i.
feel tt i m useless.
everytym my kor is sad,
he will cum ask mi wad happen.
bt dis tym,
he's sad, bt i actually cnt sensed it.
if he didn't tell us,
i tink i will b kept in the dark forever.
he asked if he can go ask thse gods nt.
abt their relationship.
den we started askin him wad happen,
tts y he told us.
bt my mum was lyk so dumb.
she dun understand wad he wan to sae.
of cuz its diff for ppl to tell others dey break up wif their <3
i told him dun fake le,
bt he juz smile lor.
hais.
i ask him to share,
bt he juz smile away.
hais.
wad m i supposed to do to cheer him up?
he culd actually cheer mi up, when i m down, bt y i can't?
hais.
i really hope he will b happie again,
n dey can b back together again!
KOR! JIA YOUS!=)
dun worry, i will b dere for u olwaes!<3
do rainbow appear? i<3u!((: 8:31 PM
Wednesday, September 06, 2006
hahas.
back frm bishan j8.
woke up abt 10 in the morning, by eunice's call!!
wow lao.
cuz ytd nite went jaslyn's hse till abt 12.30.
went out to study wif eunice.
was supposed to go bishan library to study de.
den go dere no place to study,
so went j8's kfc to study.
wow...
was lyk so damn crowded in the aftnoon.
went to mos aft tt.
saw alot zhonghuarians dere.
lol.
saw wan jing, stephanie, eugene, n slyvia dere olso.
wan jing, stephanie n eugene came find mi in mos.
hahas.
tok awhile,
den dey went off.
poor eugene nid to chase aft those girls.
lol!
talk to eunice abt lots of things.
wah..
feel tt though,
we r nt in the same sch now,
bt at least we still hav lots n lots of things to tok abt.
n thank you for cheerin mi up!=)
ya.
her words r MEANINGFUL!=D
den both of us walk frm j8 back to our hm.
lol.
hahas.
off to work! bye=)
its hopeless le~i dun wish much.givin up(:
do rainbow appear? i<3u!((: 8:50 PM
Monday, September 04, 2006
hahhas.
c?
i veri gd rite?
nowadays everydae update de.
yupps.
cuz now i at my neighbour's hse.
lol.
todae.
hais.
quarrelled wif my mum again la.
wth.
she sae until she wanna cry le lor.
hais.
i dunno la.
she can frm money de topic,
sae until she cnt go work,
den until she sae y she nv die when she fell last tym.
WTF?
hais.
i dunno la.
when out for joggin at abt 4 plus wif eunice.
den she dun wan to jog,
so we started walkin,
n explore around lor.
tok to her abt lots of things.
den she told mi,
I <3>
lol.
chimalogy?
hahas.
tok abt alot alot of things.
frm 4 plus can tok till 6 plus.
hahas.
cool.
do rainbow appear? i<3u!((: 10:07 PM
BOMB!
back frm NTU few hrs back!
lol.
hahas.
ok.
juz went to ntu,
cuz my aunty fetchin my cousin go hostel.
den followed along.
saw his friend.
lol.
his friend so funny de.
hmm...
was at his hostel dere.
tink abt lots of things ba.
dere de enviornment so gd.
friends can gather together,
talk,play,watch tv together.
its lyk so fun!
lyk u n ur friends stayin in a hotel lyk tt.
hahas.
his hostel quite small bah.
juz lyk 1 bed rm,
wif 2 ppl stayin in dere lor.
ya.
n my cousin was kind of lyk lucky?
cuz his rm mate is his jc's classmate.
hahas.
is dis call FATE?
lol.
do rainbow appear? i<3u!((: 12:15 AM
Saturday, September 02, 2006
Hey. ppl! enuff of all those anger, now shall post sum fotos on zwinds dinner ba. ENJOY!!=)
mi n old chew.hahas.we both looked sian. -.-
yvonne,ting ru,minni,dalicia n mi.
mi n kun long.he's takin tt bowl of water gettin ready to splash water at wanli.lol.
mi n melvin.hahas.
ulric n i.hahas.he's all wet.he told mi he look retarded in dis pic.lol.
YEAH!mi n dalicia=)hahas.
mi n ting ru...(:
mi,melvin n yvonne.
my shuai ge n I! ^.^
horn section.frm yr 2001-2006 de batch.hahas.=)
hmm.horn section again!:)
yr 2003-2005 de horn memebers! :D
mi n yan ling!=)
mi n fiona!she finally came for band dinner.heh.
tts all for now! dunno still hav more fotos taken nt. nxt tym i shall post more ba.
till den,bye!=)
do rainbow appear? i<3u!((: 1:22 PM
Friday, September 01, 2006
hahas.
woke up at 8.30 dis mornin.
for the first tym ok.
lyk so fcukin early?
hahahs.
cuz nid pei mum to go work.
now at my godma's office,
using her com to blog.
ok.
reached central library, tt bugis 1,
den met wif my godma.
she suggested i go up to their office wif dem,
bt my mum rejected tt suggestion.
she gave lots of excuses,
n so,
i save her saliva,
walked off, n went to the central library alone.
ok.
she may sae i gt sum fcuking attitude problem,
bt whu cares?
anyway,
wadeva i do is always wrong.
hais.
wadeva.
tdy is juz another typical day,
to let her vent her anger on mi bahs.
hahas.
holidays cumin,
i borrowed lots of daniel steel de bks le.
hahas.
juz spent dis holidays meaningfully,
bt i will NEVER stae at hm,
n nt think of anything le.
cuz its impossible k!
hahas.
till den,
bye!=)
enjoy ur holidays!
do rainbow appear? i<3u!((: 10:57 AM