Saturday, September 30, 2006
its been such a long tym since i blogged.
alot ppl complaining le.
wahhas.
n so i came n blog now.
hmm..
ok so mani things happen la.
its been lyk exactly 20 daes since i blog.
haiya.
shld wait for 2 more daes ltr hor?
ahas.
den will make to no 22.
wahahas.
v gang will noe wad i tokin abt.
ya?
hahas.
deleted 1 of the post,
cuz the nxt post is smth SPECIAL ba.
mayb its my no 122 Post?
lol.
so muz make the nxt post real happie.
ok.
shall comment abt wad happen on fri bahs.
hmm...
vgang gt prob again le.
n its lyk onli 3 daes aft vgang's 1yr anni?
hais.
i dno.
reallie.
y lyk tt?
juz bcuz of tt y^4?
ya. we r all wrong.
wrong for nt tellin u all dese.
for olso creatin dis new grp.
so i start off wif sayin sorry.
reallie sorry.
hmm..
to mi.
probably,
i will sae its everyone's fault.
so i start off wif sayin y i sae both side gt fault.
ok.
have u all ever think y we wanna create dis new grp?
cuz we feel EMPTY.
seriously.
EMPTY.
think for urself.
jiahui's thing.
we noe?
we dunno!
its olwaes 4 of u.
nt 6 of us tgt.
seriously,
we tried sharing problems together.
n i guess i may nt b tryin my best ba.
cuz jh shared her probs, at least to the 4 of dem,
shiyuan to us,
yvonne to us,
sl to us,
clareen-my guardian angel, olwaes cheering ppl up, n seems to b tt heroine of my heart.
bt mi?
i kept everything to myself
even shiyuan dunno.
surprising?
i'm sorry.
cuz i dun wan to increase all of ur burdens.
i reallie dunno whu to trust.
cuz i feel really empty.
empty of wad?
i olso duno.
family probs ba?
or tt smth else?
i dunno.
sry.
sry.
sry.
sry.
i'm really really sorry.
let mi state properly.
i'm NOT trying to let ppl pity mi.
cuz i reallie wan to make some PEACE over here.
i dun wan things to happen dis wae u noe?
ya. i pin-pointed tt sl,clare,jh,n vone r alwaes tgt n nt 6 of us.
dis is olso partially our fault ba.
cuz we did nt try to kip up the pace wif u all.
i TRIED.
i dare said i alrdy TRIED.
bt it didn't work. i dno. so tts whr we r in wrong.
olso,
sumtyms we didn't wait for u, n u all too.
cuz we ASSUME things.
we assume tt each of us dun wanna wait for each other, n so we didn't wait.
n bcuz of dis ASSUMIN thing, we dun wait for each other.
back to tt y^4 thing.
i'm sry for nt tellin u all.
we decided to make dis grp low profile.
cuz we didn't wan misunderstandings.
michelle knew hw much cynthia hates her,
n tts y we decided nt to sae out.
n u c.
when dis y^4 thingi breaks out,
cynthia started scoldin her.
fuckin bitch,
idiot bitch?
n sae she is trying to gt ppl's sympathy.
mayb michelle forsees all dese things willl happen,
n so we didn't wan to sae out.
when tt thing suddenly break out ytd nite
shiyuan called,
i kept quiet,
told her to leave mi alone.
n i knew hw she was worried abt mi.
(sry abt tt)
ltr yihang called.
i was angry n at the same tym, sad.
we shouted in the fone, n told each other hw we felt.
ltr, michelle, n shiyuan called.
n we had dis mini conference all of a sudden.
for the first tym,
my heart was really pain.
all of us cried.
michelle cried the most.
she ask mi nt to tell ppl wad she said,
cuz she really dun wan ppl's sympathy.
i bet she's the one who was hurt most.
since she dun wan mi to sae,
i shall nt sae wad she said ba.
bt she's juz so hurt la.
abt 5 plus, clare msg mi n ask mi abt tt y^4 thingi.
i didn't replied.
i knw smth bad was gona happen.
i bet, at tt tym sl n calre was alrdy discussin wad plans to carried out.
when dey waited for so long, tt i didn't reply,
sl decided to call mi,
n ask mi gt wad hw.
i was gettin suspiscious at tt tym, cuz she dun normally call mi.
even if she wanna call olso call at 9 plus, 10 de.
she asked mi wad i'm doin,
n i told her, i was studyin wif my neighbour.
ya.
i was tellin the truth.
juz at tt tym sumone called
my neighbour was outside waitin for mi, cuz we studied at our corridor dere.
dun believe ask jaslyn(my neighbour)
sl laughed when i told her tt i was studyin wif jaslyn, cuz she tot i was lying
bt its true.
she dun believe nvm,
its juz another form of TRUST.
so everything break out,
n now we r out of vgang.
hahas.
being KICKED out?
bcame a laughing stock bahs.
wadever.
esther kind of lyk told mi last tym tt she was envious of our congtous, n vgang.
bt now~
everytym we gt probs,
she will sum hw noe, cuz she read my blog.
ya, n she will ask.
hahas.
she knw hw united we r.
bt it sumhw dun now.
sl was rite.
mayb we nid tym bah.
lyk wad i sae,
its a COMMUNICATION ting ba.
hahas.
INCREASE THE PEACE!(:
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